Wednesday, August 15, 2007
I had this moment today when i was thinking what's the point of praying when God already has a plan for you? okay like if he's already determined that you're never going to be rich, is there a reason to pray to become rich?
Then it clicked that Jesus himself said "father take this cup of suffering from me, but never the less, let your will be done." Okay the issue is, I was praying and praying for something... then i started to ask myself questions coz father Matt is gone now... then lucky for me a good response came:-) It reminds me of a hymn we used to sing in my Zambian church.."I believe in the sun, even when it isn't shinning. I believe in love, even there's no one there. I believe in God even when he is silent" Well God really needs to work with me for a little bit here. Okay this is me just talking to myself...so please no wanna be theologians responding with verbiage that I will not understand...comprende?
Oh and I finally had the balls to watch 'Blood diamond'...ahhhh... there are some things in life which are better left to the imagination because it's too painful when you can not do anything about them. Faith is tested again when Danny Archer says "God left Africa a long time ago"...very profound.